Weekly Summary

Well, week #46 is now complete.  Here is my workout summary

Sunday - 3.1 mile run in 29:02
Monday - Tennis (ball machine), 90 minutes
Tuesday - Rest
Wednesday - Eliptical Machine, Level 16, 45 minutes, 6.83 miles
Thursday - Tennis (ball machine), 90 minutes
Friday - Tennis, Singles 6-4, 1-6, 3-6, 110 minutes.  What a horrible loss
Saturday - 4.5 mile run in 43:15

Total Minutes (rounded):  407 (6.78 hours)

It was also a decent week from an eating perspective until last night when I just let go completely.  During this long journey I have only completely let go about 3 or 4 days.  Based on how I feel now, I think it is out of my system for a while though it will probably take me most of the week to recover.

I can't believe the loss I took in tennis on Friday.  At the same time, 46 weeks ago I was sure I was never going to play tennis again.  I just have to keep everything in perspective.

The 4.5 mile run is not a typo.  I did it on a treadmill.  My intention was to run 4 miles.  I tried something I had seen someone else do last Sunday, I put a towel over the screen on the treadmill so I couldn't see how much time had gone by or how far I had run.  Then, about 10 minutes into my run, I decided to run until I had listened to 10 songs on my iPod.  Boy was I glad when the 10th song was finished.  I pulled off the towel and saw that I was 4.4 miles into my run.  I pushed it another tenth of a mile to hit the 4.5 mile mark.  I think I am training for a 10K race at the end of May.  I am certain I could have gone 5 miles at the pace I was running at today.  If I do go for the 10K, I want to be able to enjoy it.  But, I am not going to break my rule about running.  I don't go running unless I want to.  Perhaps I will run 3 times this week or I might not run again for 3 weeks.  I have to keep my exercise fun.

I am still not ready to get on the scale yet and the overeating I have done in the last 12 hours isn't going to help. After eating all of that bad food, I feel like crap now.  In a weird way that does give me some confidence that I will be able to keep this weight off.  I really don't want to feel this way for a long time much less every day.

It is weird.  Whenver my stomach is a bit more than full either from eating too much or drinking a lot of water, I "feel" like I have gained all the weight back.  Sometimes, I even try on my "goal clothes" to make sure I haven't gained it all back.  Intellectually I know I can't gain all of the weight back in 12 hours but my emotions seem to enjoy screwing with my mind.

The Anti-Jared is right.  Approach every day like it is Day One and define your own perfection.

Cheers.